I
feel like the last few months I have been letting myself down and
letting down my readers (the few that I have). My blog hasn’t be exactly
active or riveting, I have my
2 weekly posts and that’s it. Once in a blue moon I throw in something
else but nothing exciting or helpful.
I hope that will change but right now I am in a funk.
A
big funk that I can’t seem to shake; I think that it’s partly because I
have yet to do the yearly exercise of reflecting on what last year had
to offer, the good, the bad
and the ugly``*/, it allows me to see where I have been which leads to the
next exercise of seeing here I need to go. I haven’t put any goals,
dreams or ambitions in place. I haven’t done my vision boards; I haven’t
taken the time to invest in myself.
The
funny thing about that is I am asking my family for some time for
myself but yet I am not willing to invest that time for myself.
If I am not willing to put the work and put myself on my priority list then how will other honor my requests.
Because
of this I feel like I am spinning aimlessly in the universe, I have no
plan of action, I have no goals to follow. I am lost.
I am going to try to make myself a priority and do this, maybe
once I do things will start to fall into place and I can start taking
action.
At
the moment I am feeling very overwhelmed with my life, I am having a
hard time dealing with my emotions around Monkey being diagnosed with
some learning disabilities (I
have a post written about this and yet I can’t take the actions
necessary to publish it), I am feeling very overwhelmed with changes at
work and the stressful environment they are causing, I am frustrated
with myself that I am the cause of my feeling lost,
I am frustrated with myself that I can’t help Monkey more, I am
frustrated with myself that I am getting in my own way, that I can’t
silence the negative nellies in my head, I am frustrated with my knee, my loss of activity. It all just overwhelms me.
I am paralyzed with fear, I feel like it’s all too much.
Ania
1 comment:
When you don't know where to start just start somewhere and the rest will take care of itself.
We all get in these "funks" and I find it's a time when you can reflect and regroup and come out stronger...
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